I really meant it when I said that whatever I’m doing right now isn’t for myself anymore, it’s really more for the organisation, because it frustrates me, knowing that AIESEC Curtin has such great potential to do so much better and yet we’re not achieving it. I really had so much plans, so I guess I couldn’t hold it back when it came to VP Talent Management successor to be announced, it wasn’t my name who was called out. I guess it’s at the back of my head that I took that risk to still run for Executive Board even though I know the term is for a year, and I have only 6 months left in Australia. I knew it was going to be detrimental as to whether I get the position.
Maybe it felt like rejection. I don’t know why after everything was announced and I realised I wasn’t going to be part of any of it, it was just so overwhelming. I know I shouldn’t, but I just kept thinking of all the times I try to do everything right and still fail. It felt so much like the time when Nigel left and I try so hard to keep him but I still lose him in the end. I guess my speech is very very relevant, since I describe AIESEC as my boyfriend, and this time, I failed in getting a position despite all the time I invested. I know there will be more opportunities, maybe not now, maybe not here in Australia because of such a limited time, but someday, and maybe even bigger, like Khai said.
It’s just that, I don’t know… I’m looking for something to gain back that fulfillment I lost long ago, and I thought this was it. I guess it wasn’t after all.
But I’ve never been happier, that the people who are in the EB roles are all those passionate and equipped with experience. And to Tien, who is VP TM, though I’m disappointed it wasn’t me, I’m so glad it wasn’t anybody else. I know you never wanted to run for VP TM, but you’re going to do an amazing job, and for the little time I have, I’m not gonna leave your team. 
